Karma Balance

When Karma seems to gorge you with delight,
fear comes of the dark following night,
as it snitches your stand and floor alike
delivering you to the groundless plunge.

While it smiled its teeth were white,
its promise shone you beyond existence...
your meaning, the comprehensible whole
of your worth and expansive potential.

Oh, but when they sank relentless,
the burst notion of the hollow
truth of insignificance sucked from within.

The marks of its inward pressure on your chest
will fold you on eternity, until the shine again
a swift glimpse of a higher purpose.

New life

When the world stops spinning,
because it lost its size, power and weight.
When you become so much more
than the life you are in.

There is a life sprouting in you,
with endless magic she surprised
and gave you in ten seconds
the meaning of your life.

Midnight whistles or daily pave,
couldn't ground me to earth,
I am beyond the stars and skies.

The only care is reserved,
to whom I love and his precious
priceless profound gift.

The hardest decision you will ever make

-You know what hurts the most?
It's not the undignified resolution, or the blame, or even the felling I am not worth a second chance.
The hardest part is that I won a prize, just before I found out... And when people pass and congratulate me now I instinctively shudder revisiting the awful truth only a few have to live through.
Then I remember, they couldn't know, back as I am forcing myself to be.
I didn't tell anyone. I had no time, before the news were no longer good.
As I figure the meaning of their acknowledgement, only endless seconds past I sank in opaque pain again. I had almost forgotten, and shall again, smiling my way back to life.  The world didn't collapse, it should have. It should be harder on your body and scar you for life to do such a decision. It should unable your lips to ever fold into a smile.
At least no one knows, and no one will ask.
I wonder, though, how they could have missed the bright twinkle in my eyes just three weeks ago, when life was brilliant and promising and I was... so much more.