Hush Hush

You're that I most feared,
refused to approach,
avoided at any cost
and would never chose!

Naturally therefore here I am
yours for the conquering,
not only won't resist
but will as I might assist!

Naturally therefore here I am
My existence is nonsense,
if you are far long gone,
my blood runs for your return.

Naturally therefore here I am
You're the only one for me,
solely you could sequester
my tamed heart body and soul.

Give any of it back if you can
'cause there's a limit to
the strain one can handle
you wouldn't want it to break!?

I was thinking of writing a book...

But that never really happens. And even if it did, I would have to have it always with me so I could continue writing...
I am not saying it is worth reading or the space in google's computer, but I had no better way to have it in hand to write whenever I would like... So here it goes! I hope to be writing a lot, mostly nonsense and attempts of small chapters in this quest for my book!

Grown up

Life was so well defined,
what was from me expected
and what I could expect.
I could live myself so intensely.

Still had all my possibilities,
choices with various defaults,
questions to which there were answers
and clear consequences on my actions.

I am left with no regrets
nor easy choices, nor big options
for those were taken once before.

Lost in the speedy passing days
living the life I had the courage to get
not focusing on those I could have gotten.